Ugh! I feel like I am 12 years old again and that I’m heading to my first day of junior high school. Will people like me? Does my hair look okay? What if I don’t like it there and nobody wants to sit with me at lunch time?
Heading back to work after two weeks off is a drag.
It’s not like I scheduled two weeks of earned vacation time off in advance, either. Nope. I have been On Leave, and I’m not sure how people are going to react to me at work now that I’m going back. Will things be weird? Will people secretly give me pity looks behind my back? Or will my coworkers just be happy not to pick up my slack anymore? Water under the bridge, you know…
I have worked at my workplace for just about three years now. During that time, two different coworkers have taken leave for stress and have never returned. We joke about the ‘three year burnout’ around the office– most people can’t seem to hack it for any longer than that– but having been there for three years and having taken a leave, too, I can totally understand why the other colleagues didn’t come back.
It’s just… awkward… you know? Like I’ve got a big STIGMA sign taped to my back now. “NOT ABLE TO DEAL WITH STRESS PROFESSIONALLY“.
Whatever. I’m going to put on my too-cool-for-school attitude this morning, the one that pretends it doesn’t care what other people think, and I’m going to head on over to work today. Maybe it will be awesome, no? Perhaps I’ll be wearing the right outfit and I’ll be popular and everyone will want to take their lunch at the same time as me. (Even though that would be annoying, because I like to read during my lunch time and never get any reading done when the rest of the office is in the lunch room, too.)
Wish me luck, okay?